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FUCK. MY. LIFE.

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so for the first time, in a very long time i think, i am SO EXTREMELY EXCITED : DD whyyyy am i excited you may ask? because i just blew 200+dollars on art supplies xD well, the 200 + thing was actually very terrifying... but.. the markers i bought are very good quality and i think it was well worth the money.
they're called copics :3 i've been wanting to try them out for several months, but then i got some money for senior year 400 thereabouts, and i just went for it. i thought to myself 'i probably will never ever have this much money in my life, so why not just buy them?' :D i'm so excited. i got the paper and everything that's necessary to be able to use them.

i am also excited, because for the longest time, i have not been able to figure out what i want for christmas at all. but now i have narrowed it down into two possibilities. one is the fact that i need a scanner. i need one soo bad. if i end up liking copics enough, i think i will go and ask for one, but we'll see. MY COPICS ARE IN THE MAIL :D i just got the email today.

another thing is, if any of you know the brand Wacom, they produce and distribute digital art supplies, such as tablets, photoshop, and different software for the more professional artist. one of the main things i want to be able to do is to put my artwork on DA (deviantart.com) because i feel that i've improved since the time that i first started drawing ( i still suck though...) okay, back to the item i'm selling to you. xD they have this new thing called 'Inkling'. It's a system that allows you to draw on paper, and put it on the internet from there! how cool is that!! i need to do more research but i think that it can use any type of paper... i'm not sure.... well that's what i'm selling you guys. and also i lost my bamboo fun pen so i can't do that type of art either. but that's why i'm so excited :D

on another note... school is dumb. very very dumb. i hate it so much. i'm already like, dying in two of my classes and we haven't even been there for a week. I'M SUCH A FAIL. and my dumb p.e. teacher made us play disc golf in the rain today. i'm not even kidding.

also i'm a dump. i'm just a dump.

(wow this got really depressing really fast. . . . . )

barf

the worst combination = country music + football. i seriously felt nauseous when i watched that video.

Alex the Lumberjack

the battle between alex and a stick. who will win?

school = barf

so i finally got home. home to boring old barf town macomb. seriously there's nothing to do out here... it's worse then hampstead.... oh well. i start school next wednesday which will be a bummer but i think it'll be okay since i'm going to be a senior. that means i can do whatever i want pretty much whenever i want... except for first and second hour. those are my two only really academic classes AP english will be kind of hard to keep up with though maybe... oh barf i just looked at my suitcase and it is OVERFLOWING i really need to unpack tomorrow. but it scares me. so much. *shiver*

on another note... i'm listening to the sherlock holmes soundtrack. i think that that has to be one of the most amazing movies ever created in my life time. and it makes me doubly excited to see robert downing jr. again. he's my favorite..... i know he's like 40+ years old or something but hell, who cares? oh well. it's coming out right around my birthday so that's all good. hans zimmer is such an amazing composer. i love all of his work. it really inspires me when i'm drawing... SPEAKING OF WHICH. i've actually become quite decent at it i think. i still can't draw males AT ALL but who cares...

i just found out (also) that one of my friends who's from japan watches one of the anime series that i'm keeping up with which makes me really excited : D it's called Kimi ni Todoke (From Me to You) and it's the sweetest, most moving thing i've ever seen/watched. Sawako and Kazehaya are sooo adorable together.

As for actual books I'm reading.... i'm just finishing up The Grimm Legacy  by polly schuman and i'm going to start Nightshade by Andrea Cremer soon. hmmmm i think... that might be all i have for now. sorry about how long this is... it kinda went on for awhile... just skip over whatever you don't want to read...

chico hot sptings

so that's where i am. but i haven't actually gotten in yet. idk. oh and also.... NEXT MONTH I AM GOING TO SEE THE HORRORS LIVE WITH MY BEST FRIENDS IN THE WORLD SOPHIA AND SARAH AND POSSIBLY ANNIKA. hmmm. i guess that's all for now.

traumatized

i'm finally at a computer. FINALLY. i mean i have one but the place where i'm staying... well it has no interneto. lammeeeee. oh well. at least i'm on here. i already kinda miss north carolina but it's good for me to be out of that MICROWAVE of a state. so... you're probably want to know why i'm traumatized. well you're going to here it anyways so if you're not interested then well, leave.

I AM NEVER FLYING BY MYSELF AGAIN. AT LEAST ON A CONNECTING FLIGHT. OHMYGOSH WORST EXPERIENCE EVERRRRRRRRRRRRR.

so first, my flight got cancelled in chicago of all places. and i had to stay the night. and then i had to wake up at three fifty a. m. barf. and then it was all okay until i got to denver... i had first class and everything. which meant... FREE OMELET. AND SAUSAGE. AND POTATOES. yummmmmmmm. but then... my gates kept changing and delaying in denver and i was so freaked out... good lord. but now i'm in montana and i've eaten SO MUCH FOOD it's not even funny. i mean.... yeah. oh well. i guess i'm done for now. bye.

more music

okay so i'm just going to post a million videos up here since i have nothing better to do with my life right now.

the black keys. tighten up.

cake. the distance.

foster the people. pumped up kicks.

the broken bells. the high road. 

the kills. satellite. 

x. the hungry wolf.

that's all for now. some of the bands that i am currently obsessed with.

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okay so i don't really know what to put on this post. hopefully it'll get a little more interesting... but i doubt it.... hhhh. today is somewhat sad. i'm leaving north carolina tomorrow but i really looooove montana so it'll be okay in the long run. i suppose that it's just because i realized school is starting again and i'm not sure how i'm gonna do in some of my classes.... oh welll. i guess i still have like, three weeks or something. we start all the way on the 24. and plus sine i'm a senior this year it's going to be my last year of high school ever. which is weird to think about. right now i'm listening to options by gomez. have a listen.

i really like this band at the moment. not particularly obsession worthy but they're nice. um i dunno what else to talk about really. i got my prom dress today. prom's like... 200 days away i think. more than half a year. but that's kind of funny. umm i don't really have anything else to say i guess. enjoy gomez.

oh, and also, earlier i was just going through a slightly depressing phase... don't expect to see much more provocative language from me anytime soon... it's gonna be a little more censored... well. i hope that makes up for some of it. or something like that. bye.

spice and wolf

montana

in just two short days i will be in the best place ever. montana.

on another note

i finally found that black rock shooter video. have a look!

it's just so good. you have no idea how good it is. that is all until later. sayonara

lowline/the features

so i'm going through this phase - as you can probably guess by the title of this blog. pretty much the best bands ever are the features, and lowline. they're just all so amazing. so i'll share some of their brilliance with you just this second.

the features- lions = best song ever

plus the guy who's sitting there is just gorgeous and somehow reminds me of the main singer in lowline... but i love both of them. at the minute i'm listening to all your scars by lowline. but that doesn't have a music video so you'll have to settle for monitors, which is just as good. maybe better. and i like it because you can see his face perfectly. i'm pretty sure that he's british which just makes him that much better than everyone else. so here's monitors for you :

don't tell me he's not beautiful. he's pretty much a god. both of them are. but i'd say brits score higher over us americans. they just do. pretty much everyone else in the world scores higher then us americans. god i hate being american.

sleep deprivation/ant domination

so i'm pretty sure i stayed up till around 3 or so again last night which is killling me. i swear. but that's besides the point. oh and also i'm pretty cure i heard nyan cat blasting at like... 6 this morning. i was sort of terrified. and then this morning.... well i actually technically just woke up so it's like midmorning or something. i don't really give a damn. but i woke up and there were ants all over my fucking kitchen. i dunno if that's supposed to mean something but it was creepy. they were EVERYWHERE man. like they wanted to take over.  so that's my morning so far. sleep deprivation and apparent ant domination

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you were warned here goes :

so first thing is, the underline feature for blogger.com is being so damn difficult. i mean why can't the internet just FUCKING WORK. THE LITTLE PIECE OF SHIT. DAMMIT. so that's my internet rant. okay let's move on to my life rant. you better be ready for this because i've got no fucking clue what's happening in it.

so my life is pretty dumb so far. actually it's more like hell. i can't seem to do anything right and everybody pretty much hates me i'm sure. i'm not particularly good at anything. actually i can't really do ANYTHING right according to my damn parents. and everybody else in the world. also i'm pretty fucking sure that i will never ever get married. it's just a feeling i have y'know? i know i'm still on this but i mean.... it's never gonna happen. i just know it. besides the fact that i've almost been slightly molested by this kid before who happened to be YOUNGER then me. i mean that's probably as far as it's going to get. yup. pretty fucking fantastic. and also my dogs scare the hell out of everybody they meet. i wish they would stop and be nice... good little shit dogs who aren't supposed to have brains.

but back to my shitty life. i'm just not good enough. at all. and that's my thoughts on my fucking shitty life. y'know? i'll let you get back to yours.

black rock shooter

so my new favorite thing in the world- well it has been for a month or so i guess -is this animated video called black rock shooter. have any of you heard of vocaloid? well the cool people have. so those of you who have heard of it it's amazing. i can't express my love of the black rock shooter ova enough. i mean... c'mon. it's like i wish i had a parallel universe that i could fight people whenever i wanted too. it's just so good. the song is so good. sorry for those of you to whom this doesn't apply. it's all just so good. that's all for now.

black rock shooter

so my new favorite thing in the world- well it has been for a month or so i guess -is this animated video called black rock shooter. have any of you heard of vocaloid? well the cool people have. so those of you who have heard of it it's amazing. i can't express my love of the black rock shooter ova enough. i mean... c'mon. it's like i wish i had a parallel universe that i could fight people whenever i wanted too. it's just so good. the song is so good. sorry for those of you to whom this doesn't apply. it's all just so good. that's all for now.

ehh

well i don't have much to say right now. i suppose i'll just rant about stuff for now. i mean... that's what blogs are for i guess, right??? well whatever. it's not like you shits are here to JUDGE me or anything. okay good. well let's go then.

so today i've had like soooo much food. okay maybe not that much, just pizza and nachos and pixie sticks.  but i feel like i'm going to explode. i suppose that pizza does to you. i probably should go on a diet or something in the near future but... well... it just doesn't seem possible. i mean how can people live for up to MONTHS without things like bread, sugar, salt, fat, etc.... it's just impossible for me. all of those things are like my illegal drugs. i wouldn't be surprised if i ended up like my history teacher when i'm an adult... shudder. god. i can't wait to be an adult. plus i don't want to grow up. is that contradicting or what? i mean adults have to go through a shit load of stuff day in day out. although my childhood was hell too... my life is pretty much a dump except for the things that keep me sane. like blogging. idk how i've lived without blogging until now. KUDOS to blogging.

let's go back to ranting. plus i'm also starting to feel like i will NEVER have a relationship or something... i mean... that's the whole thing i ranted about before. i wonder if brown cows are uglier than others. idk. i've never really been around cows much. when i am i'm eating them... or something... yeah. ummmmm. i just lovce meat. except i could NEVER kill my own for food. i'd probably pay someone to do it for me. which is what i do most of the time already anyways....

well today i watched this movie called 'road home' or something. and this girl was in total stalker mode. i guess she was in love with him but still... i mean.... she went all out. it was really hilarious to watch actually. but other than that it was pretty touching. i mean i don't normally like american love stories but it was cute and bearable. so i guess that's all until a little later tonight. au revoir

what up, little dudes

so i'm starting to be depressed that school is happening in like three weeks or so. i guess that's kind of besides the point in this rant that i'm going to have you listen to today/tonight. whatever the hell of time it is. but oh well. back to the important stuff. so in several days i'm going to montana. yes, montana, the wide state or something. i don't even know what it's called. but it's so amazing there. i mean sooooo so so so so amazing. i love the mountains and the forests and everything. much different from the microwave of the east coast. god it's like an oven here. but anyways. back to montana. i get to see some of my vvery best friends there, which is always nice. friends, yay! but sometimes... i want to kill people. just all of them. that's how i feel during the school year mostly. which is happening in 3 WEEKS. DAMN. but there is this one kid i know there. it was kind of an awkward situation... but you see. we went to the midnight showing of the sixth harry potter movie. yes it was the BOMB. i still need to watch them all in order someday. also, on that note my childhood officially ended with the last movie that just came out. depresssionnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. oh well. at least i can read them over and over like a FREAK. maybe i won't do that. just watch the movies or something.

back to the awkward situation kid. so we ended up having this massive sleep over type thing. guys and girls. and i was changing into my pajamas just kind of nonchalantly and then he's there like BAM right there. my pants were kind of all the way off... well not ALL the way but you know. my panties were showing. and then he just started like taking his pants of as well and i was like, no what the hell man, get out i'm changing. it kind of freaked me out a little. it's not like he DID anything. i mean he was just a fellow pants taker off but still... i mean man plus woman in the same room is like... woah. i didn't really want to take part in any of that. eventually he did leave but it took me forEVER to get him out of there. god it was terrifying. and the funny thing is that the kid was completely harmless. so anyways.

i'll be in montana in a matter of days visiting the unintentional rapist kid. he didn't even touch me at all which makes the whole thing hilarious. i couldn't stop laughing once that happened. and i probably won't after i see him. well then. i just told you about the time i was almost but not really kind of raped. hope that you had fun.